To See Through ! / Exsistence.

In memory of the late Lebanese – American Poet and Philosopher Elia Abu Madi 1890 – 1957.

I _ l came ,l don’t know from where or how l came to be l am, or why  l came ?l don’t know!

l saw a path in front of me l began to walk,l must keep on walking willingly or unwillingly ,whether l agree or not.

How did l came to be? How did l sighted my way? l can’t perceive the matter ,l don’t know!

II – Am l new or am l old in this existence ?

Am l free or am l a captive in confinement?

Do l lead myself or l am being lead ?

l wish l knew ,but l don’t know,l don’t know!

l must coincide , but why ? l don’t know!

III – Is my journey a rough one? Is it a long one?

Is it a short unpredictable one?

Am l walking or time is doing the walking for me ?

l don’t know,l don’t know!

IV- l saw stars ,but l don’t know why they are irradiate ?

l saw the clouds ,but l don’t know why they are sending out the rain?

l saw the forest with the trees ,but l don’t know why they  bear fruit after they bloom?

Are they like me ?they don’t know  why they came to be?l don’t know!

V- l remember nothing of my past life,l can’t predict my coming years.

l know l have a self ,but l don’t know what it is?

So when would myself knows itself ,l don’t know!

VI- l see a struggle going on within me .

l see myself as the devil then as an angel.

Bad and good  battling inside my mind.

Why they keep on fighting ? Why they can’t get along ?

l don’t know ,l don’t know!

VII- Where are  my cries and my laughter ?

Where are my sadness and my joy?

Am l sane or am l insane ?

Did l loss every thing ,but how it happened?

l don’t know l don’t know!

Am l going to be send back after my death?

Old or young,am l going to know myself?

Or am l to be no more? l don’t know ,l don’t know!.


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